A little bit of context, please? Uncommented this just looks like teenage rambling about the important questions in life in some chatroom.You don't like to play SS2 any more until something new comes out? Subscribe to the SCP topic and do something else. No big deal, I find.
You are just 17. You will figure it out.
To Me it seems you have much fear about the future.You need to stop just consuming and try to be creative. Don't be afraid of using other works as an inspiration.If you think that there are no tools to be creative in some way, then you really don't know enough about it or you are just procrastinating.Travelling backwards in time is impossible.There is no loops, everyone has one line.You don't actually know what you want until you find it, keep searching.Things you are interested in changes about every six to eight years. Some stuff keeps being interesting all the time.Problem with watching movies or series multiple times is that you don't forget them, ever.Learn more about human lives before video games and movies. These are very new things.Universe doesn't circulate around humans.